Great news. Part of my problems lately are hormonal! My menses started yesterday so of course I had extra low BEs for the last week or so! Whew. Just knowing that has helped me find center and hope again. This is only my 2nd cycle after getting pregnant with Magne, so it will take time for it to settle into a rhythm.
Mika read the tips article I sent and I hope he will try to change his reaction to the children from now on, although I am sure I'll need too remind him from time to time (and he me probably!)
Today we made lövbiff with millet and some carrots. I cleaned the kitchen a bit too. Then we went outside and finished staking support frames for our fruit bushes. We still have 3 more to do, but ran out of wood, doh. Those three are staying upright on their own for the most part so we have time to get it done. Probably next weekend when we buy the wood for our fence.
Right now, Magne is sleeping on me and the cat is curled up on top of him and me. Mika's right knee is really hurting him, the worst he's ever felt, he says. Freja is bored and wants to go outside to play. Vidar is upstairs playing Super Mario Galaxy 2.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Saturday 17 July
So, I sent a lovely article link to my husband about 3 weeks ago which I think will help him change how he reacts to the children (and it is reacting, it is not responding). I don't think he has read it yet as he is still reacting to the children. I can see it sundering their trust in him each time and it hurts to watch.
I am not sure what to do now. Especially with my food being so awful lately, I am so tearful and reactive myself. I just know that this needs to change and soon or things will get worse here.
Okay, I just asked him if he had read it yet and he said no, so he promised he will read it this weekend. :) I want him to read it every day until he internalizes the change!
Other goals for today are to build the wooden supports for our berry bushes and to cook up more food and freeze it and to have sex. Mmmm. sex. Yay! ;) Oh yes and to reorganize the office/hobby room.
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We've got one bush framed and pounded in some wood for the second gooseberry bush. Then it was time for lunch which was Rainbow Chicken curry with millet. Yum! While I ate, my dad came on Skype and we chatted for a bit. During which Magne dozed off in my lap. So now I am going to play Sims 3 Ambitions for awhile.
I am not sure what to do now. Especially with my food being so awful lately, I am so tearful and reactive myself. I just know that this needs to change and soon or things will get worse here.
Okay, I just asked him if he had read it yet and he said no, so he promised he will read it this weekend. :) I want him to read it every day until he internalizes the change!
Other goals for today are to build the wooden supports for our berry bushes and to cook up more food and freeze it and to have sex. Mmmm. sex. Yay! ;) Oh yes and to reorganize the office/hobby room.
----part 2----
We've got one bush framed and pounded in some wood for the second gooseberry bush. Then it was time for lunch which was Rainbow Chicken curry with millet. Yum! While I ate, my dad came on Skype and we chatted for a bit. During which Magne dozed off in my lap. So now I am going to play Sims 3 Ambitions for awhile.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Friday 16 July
Wow, I didn't realize how long it had been since I last made an entry here. My food got really shitty last week and has continued so this week as well. But tonight I made a great meal, so here's to getting back on track so that I can feel wonderful again!
Magne's 2nd birthday was on Sunday 11th July and we took the kids to lådbilslandet, where they had a lot of fun driving small cars, playing on the huge playground, etc. Freja has already asked to go back. :)
It's bedtime now, so I will write more tomorrow.
Magne's 2nd birthday was on Sunday 11th July and we took the kids to lådbilslandet, where they had a lot of fun driving small cars, playing on the huge playground, etc. Freja has already asked to go back. :)
It's bedtime now, so I will write more tomorrow.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
July 3 - Saturday
Today we rented a car and went to Hornback, Biltema, ICA, Jysk and picked up a lot of odds and ends that we needed.
Friday, July 2, 2010
June 2 - Friday
Painted one layer of paint on the last wall in Freja's room. Rested once for a bit. Didn't eat lunch, just snacked on bread and peanut butter. Hung outside for awhile on our own deck and on the neighbor's deck. He was inappropriate again but I was able to tell him that he crossed the line. Yay me! He doesn't think he is an alcoholic.
Now I feel sadness and grief. I think I am remembering my own drinking years and grieving over how I was.. esp. now that I know how it could have been had I been in recovery.
Now I feel sadness and grief. I think I am remembering my own drinking years and grieving over how I was.. esp. now that I know how it could have been had I been in recovery.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
July 1 - Thursday
Today we have finished up the purple wall and started on the pink walls. As of now, one wall has the first layer of paint and is drying enough to do the 2nd layer. Hopefully by Friday evening we'll have all the walls painted. Then we're going to do a quick layer of white on the ceiling and some white on the dustboards.
I have been feeling frumpy grumpy and down and sad and useless all day. I think I must have pushed myself too far on Tuesday by walking to Colorama and back home. *sigh* This too shall pass.
I have been feeling frumpy grumpy and down and sad and useless all day. I think I must have pushed myself too far on Tuesday by walking to Colorama and back home. *sigh* This too shall pass.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
June 30 - Wednesday
Waking up and getting out of bed has been difficult the past two days. But then again, I've been way more active than I have been in years. Going to try to get up after the alarm tomorrow and get brekki before going back to sleep.
Today Freja and I painted the purple wall. The edges still need to be done, but that'll have to wait until tomorrow.
I made yummmmmy chicken curry today with zucchini, yellow paprika, tomatos, red onion, garlic and lots o spices. Crushed tomatos and some oatly cream as well. Filling and tasty! We ate it with Millet.
I only did a couple of stretches today.
Today Freja and I painted the purple wall. The edges still need to be done, but that'll have to wait until tomorrow.
I made yummmmmy chicken curry today with zucchini, yellow paprika, tomatos, red onion, garlic and lots o spices. Crushed tomatos and some oatly cream as well. Filling and tasty! We ate it with Millet.
I only did a couple of stretches today.
June 29 - Tuesday
I am posting this on Wednesday evening, so I don't recall all that I did. The big thing that happened though is that Freja and I went to Colorama and bought some paint for her new room. She chose Cotton Candy Pink and a nice purple which will be on just one wall. We walked all the way to the store and back. Although before we went back, we stopped by the grocery store and bought meatballs, a few apples, some cherries, etc for dinner.
Oh I remember, I got about 1.5 hours of alone times when Mika took the kids out to the big playground. I didn't' get a chance to do more than eat lunch, get the dishwasher started and pick up papers from the floor. I really wanted to do some scrapbooking so that sucked. Also, I had just started really relaxing.
Anyway, while Freja and I were shopping with Magne, Mika took Vidar out to the forest which he really liked.
Oh I remember, I got about 1.5 hours of alone times when Mika took the kids out to the big playground. I didn't' get a chance to do more than eat lunch, get the dishwasher started and pick up papers from the floor. I really wanted to do some scrapbooking so that sucked. Also, I had just started really relaxing.
Anyway, while Freja and I were shopping with Magne, Mika took Vidar out to the forest which he really liked.
Monday, June 28, 2010
June 28 - Monday
Today is the first day of writing in my RR food journal for 90 days. Hope it goes well. I would love to have this down as the corner stone of my stability in the food program.
Today's ToDo List:
- clean kitty litter
- feed all bushes and trees and roses outside
- clean kitchen
make food- vacuum upstairs and downstairs
- clean bathrooms
take kids out to playground
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10.00 - cleared off the kitchen table, put papers in the recycle bag, put away dishes, loaded dishwasher with all the tupperware and put it on to wash, washed the liter water glass jars, organized the next load of dishes to wash, and put a pan on to soak. Also cut up a green apple for Magne and Freja to share.
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12.30 - Made Chicken with Roasted Lemons. Going to eat it with leftover basmati rice. Nibbling on a couple of green beans right now. After I eat lunch and digest I will deal with the dishwasher and the rest of the pots n pans.
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14.00 - Took the kids to the big playground by the pool. They had a blast as there are so many different things to do there.. built in trampoline, climbing ropes in a pyramid shape, balance beams, slides, teetertottter, etc etc... Now it's almost 17 and I'm physically wiped out but in bliss. After we got home I made some oatmeal for Magne and Freja, and peeled an orange for Vidar which I ate half of. After I rest and possibly before I eat dinner, I will feed and water the trees/bushes/roses outside. Otherwise I will do so after dinner.
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19.00
So much for that idea. Instead Magne and I took a quick bath to get clean, got him dressed for bed, and helped him fall asleep. Nice to have him asleep early and still be awake for a little bit by myself, well, with freja, vidar and mika. I've just helped shower off Freja. Now I am trying to relax before going back to bed to sleep.
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14.00 - Took the kids to the big playground by the pool. They had a blast as there are so many different things to do there.. built in trampoline, climbing ropes in a pyramid shape, balance beams, slides, teetertottter, etc etc... Now it's almost 17 and I'm physically wiped out but in bliss. After we got home I made some oatmeal for Magne and Freja, and peeled an orange for Vidar which I ate half of. After I rest and possibly before I eat dinner, I will feed and water the trees/bushes/roses outside. Otherwise I will do so after dinner.
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19.00
So much for that idea. Instead Magne and I took a quick bath to get clean, got him dressed for bed, and helped him fall asleep. Nice to have him asleep early and still be awake for a little bit by myself, well, with freja, vidar and mika. I've just helped shower off Freja. Now I am trying to relax before going back to bed to sleep.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
June 27 - Sunday
Fairly laid back day today. For me anyway.
Woke up at 7, took BBT, ate brekki on time. Lunch was 2 hours late! Told Mika that I'd really like to do this course in September. He is processing that thought right now.
Mika took a bunch of pictures of many things we want to sell. Hopefully they'll be sold this week and we can process the next batch of things to sell.
---part 2---
So Mika is currently putting them up on Tradera.com and hopefully they will all sell!
I was feeling quite sad and down today and couldn't figure out why until I saw Jackie's post on FB about missing Paul fiercely. I could sure use one of his big hugs and to hang out with him for a bit. *sigh*
Speaking with M didn't help much with my mood either. All this back and forth, and drama, drama, drama is tiring me out. I think I will space myself from her a bit for awhile.
I have many other things I would like to focus on right now. Such as scrapbooking, keeping the house clean, gardening, and most importantly FOCUSING ON MY FOOD! I will use my bigger old journal that is at least a third empty to journal for now. Hopefully my new one will show up soon?
Woke up at 7, took BBT, ate brekki on time. Lunch was 2 hours late! Told Mika that I'd really like to do this course in September. He is processing that thought right now.
Mika took a bunch of pictures of many things we want to sell. Hopefully they'll be sold this week and we can process the next batch of things to sell.
---part 2---
So Mika is currently putting them up on Tradera.com and hopefully they will all sell!
I was feeling quite sad and down today and couldn't figure out why until I saw Jackie's post on FB about missing Paul fiercely. I could sure use one of his big hugs and to hang out with him for a bit. *sigh*
Speaking with M didn't help much with my mood either. All this back and forth, and drama, drama, drama is tiring me out. I think I will space myself from her a bit for awhile.
I have many other things I would like to focus on right now. Such as scrapbooking, keeping the house clean, gardening, and most importantly FOCUSING ON MY FOOD! I will use my bigger old journal that is at least a third empty to journal for now. Hopefully my new one will show up soon?
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Midsummer - June 26 - Saturday
I woke up around 8, took my BBT, ate brekkie and played around on FB. Then I took care of my backpack and refilled it with the things I need on a day to day basis.
Lunch was Chicken curry with basmati raw rice and cauliflower. Yum.
Vidar was freaking out at EVERYTHING while he was playing a game on his DS. Right now, though, he is running around with his siblings. Hopefully we can get him outside for a little bit this evening. His fear of bugs is difficult to manage sometimes. He also washed his hands today by himself, YES!
Freja started a bath by herself, dressed herself and spun around on Mika's office chair.
Mika and I folded and put away the clean laundry.
And I have decided to go for it and move to the states with the kids, at least temporarily. I think we will move over first in mid-August and let Mika have some time to himself while he waits for his Non-Immigrant Visa or Immigrant Visa (depending on whether his company will let him work over there, which I think they will).
I have written up a list of things to think about and do on Google Wave. Whew. What a big decision this is!
This also means we will not bother with making a room just for Freja here. LOL. Not yet anyways. Although we will still put up a new fence and the flowers in the front garden.
Lunch was Chicken curry with basmati raw rice and cauliflower. Yum.
Vidar was freaking out at EVERYTHING while he was playing a game on his DS. Right now, though, he is running around with his siblings. Hopefully we can get him outside for a little bit this evening. His fear of bugs is difficult to manage sometimes. He also washed his hands today by himself, YES!
Freja started a bath by herself, dressed herself and spun around on Mika's office chair.
Mika and I folded and put away the clean laundry.
And I have decided to go for it and move to the states with the kids, at least temporarily. I think we will move over first in mid-August and let Mika have some time to himself while he waits for his Non-Immigrant Visa or Immigrant Visa (depending on whether his company will let him work over there, which I think they will).
I have written up a list of things to think about and do on Google Wave. Whew. What a big decision this is!
This also means we will not bother with making a room just for Freja here. LOL. Not yet anyways. Although we will still put up a new fence and the flowers in the front garden.
Friday, June 25, 2010
June 25 - Friday
I woke up an hour later than usual, took my basal body temp, took a shower and found a tick on me. EEEEW. Then I went downstairs to make brekki and found an indian meal moth, so Mika went through the cupboards again to clean everything out. We're going to need to stick everything there in the freezer for a couple of days, I think.
So breakfast was late again today, along with yesterday's shoddy timing, strenuous walking, and sunburn.
Mika and I paid our Swedish bills and it feels good to get that done AND to actually have been able to pay everything and have enough left over for the fence in the front yard.
After that I went outside for a bit with Magne and he went to the neighbor's trampoline to jump with the neighbor's 6 year old boy. He seemed to really enjoy that, but then I felt way too tired and took Magne back inside. I changed his clothes, then picked up all the dishes in the living room and on the table and put them on the counter in the kitchen. I had planned on starting a load of dishes, but I just felt too tired. So I sat down and came here to post and play some games on FB, and just a half hour ago, Magne climbed into my lap, nursed for a bit, and fell asleep.
So, lunch is supposed to be in 2 minutes. Yeah, right. Not going to happen.
Mika has today off as it is midsummer's eve, but as he did not work at all yesterday, he is working today. I am going to hope he can get me something to eat fairly quickly.
We'll see how this goes, considering how I am feeling today.
So breakfast was late again today, along with yesterday's shoddy timing, strenuous walking, and sunburn.
Mika and I paid our Swedish bills and it feels good to get that done AND to actually have been able to pay everything and have enough left over for the fence in the front yard.
After that I went outside for a bit with Magne and he went to the neighbor's trampoline to jump with the neighbor's 6 year old boy. He seemed to really enjoy that, but then I felt way too tired and took Magne back inside. I changed his clothes, then picked up all the dishes in the living room and on the table and put them on the counter in the kitchen. I had planned on starting a load of dishes, but I just felt too tired. So I sat down and came here to post and play some games on FB, and just a half hour ago, Magne climbed into my lap, nursed for a bit, and fell asleep.
So, lunch is supposed to be in 2 minutes. Yeah, right. Not going to happen.
Mika has today off as it is midsummer's eve, but as he did not work at all yesterday, he is working today. I am going to hope he can get me something to eat fairly quickly.
My goals for today:
Scrapbook some more- Clean all dishes in kitchen
wipe counters cleanThink about what food to make(chicken curry, basmati rice, cauliflower, green beans)Make foodclean kitty litter- fold and put away clothes (i always seem to procrastinate this one, LOL!)
EAT ON TIME
We'll see how this goes, considering how I am feeling today.
June 24 - Thursday
I woke up and had breakfast on time, then completely forgot to take food with me when I left for my therapy appointment in Liljeholmen. I did bring the book I was reading and a new one to read on the way home.
Turns out that I didn't have an appointment with Lina, but she had a cancelation and saw me anyway. We discussed the neighbor's inappropriate comments to me and what to say or do. And talked about the biomechanics course that I would really like to do. I could see myself doing this long-term and helping mothers and well anyone who wanted the help.
I'm still in a hang-up about whether to move stateside now or later. I think I am leaning more toward now, myself. But Mika would prefer later. I figure this course would be a good reason to move stateside temporarily to give it a trial run and see how we like it.
I am waffling about this though (the moving now part). It is such a big change and commitment, and we'll be closer to my father and his wife. And that's a bit scary. They are quite judgemental about my choices when it comes to child-rearing, although my dad does a decent job of not saying anything and doing his best to accept (not his wife though).
Also, staying here means putting Vidar in school as I am too afraid to attempt to get homeschooling approved here. I am about 99.9% certain that the schools here would not work for him. There really is no space for individuality in Sweden.
I also realized yesterday while waiting for the train that this sense of comfortability is coming from within me, not because I am finally feeling at ease with living in Sweden. SO I can carry this with me to the USA. It will not go away. There are so many upsides to moving as well -
The downsides I can think of are -
Seems the cons list is small for me. I guess really going over is a good idea then. Hmm. Time to start the ball rolling then.
Anyway, while I was in Liljeholmen, I took the T-bana to Zinkensdam and the bus up to Stockholm Södra to buy a bicycle (300 kr) for Vidar. He got too big for the other one. I took my time coming back home - read the book and rested in between walking the bike home up the hill and through the park, behind the school and up the steep hill to our home.
Sadly, I didn't eat any food from the time I left the house (950) until I got back(1440). No snacks other than an apple, and laaate dinner. I will most likely feel this today, Friday, and think I am already as I've been feeling less energetic and quite tired/listless and easily annoyed.
After I got back home, I noticed the neighbor, Göran Persson, was home, so my husband and I went over to him to talk for a bit. I told him that the comments he made left me feeling uncomfortable and that I didn't like it. He said he was just joking but there was no joking when he made those comments. . . I am thinking that he is most likely an alcoholic and has inappropriate bounders and behavior due to all that that involves.
I sat outside for almost the rest of the day, coming inside around 19 to have Mika get me some dinner. Magne had fallen asleep on me and I really enjoyed just being in the moment and the sounds and feel of nature and life all around me. I also finished the 2nd book I had read that day, Vampire Academy. Then I started on the next book, Marked, which I finished before midnight.
So I also went to sleep late. Oi Oi. I seem to be trying to set myself up for instability and a crash. Silly Silly addict-voice. Time to really focus on my food and timings so that I can continue to be clear, especially with such a big life-changing move coming up!
Turns out that I didn't have an appointment with Lina, but she had a cancelation and saw me anyway. We discussed the neighbor's inappropriate comments to me and what to say or do. And talked about the biomechanics course that I would really like to do. I could see myself doing this long-term and helping mothers and well anyone who wanted the help.
I'm still in a hang-up about whether to move stateside now or later. I think I am leaning more toward now, myself. But Mika would prefer later. I figure this course would be a good reason to move stateside temporarily to give it a trial run and see how we like it.
I am waffling about this though (the moving now part). It is such a big change and commitment, and we'll be closer to my father and his wife. And that's a bit scary. They are quite judgemental about my choices when it comes to child-rearing, although my dad does a decent job of not saying anything and doing his best to accept (not his wife though).
Also, staying here means putting Vidar in school as I am too afraid to attempt to get homeschooling approved here. I am about 99.9% certain that the schools here would not work for him. There really is no space for individuality in Sweden.
I also realized yesterday while waiting for the train that this sense of comfortability is coming from within me, not because I am finally feeling at ease with living in Sweden. SO I can carry this with me to the USA. It will not go away. There are so many upsides to moving as well -
- AA and DA groups in English and much more accessible,
- RR local groups,
- easier to get the food I need for myself as well as supplements and cheaper!
- My father's and his wife's church community to help support us along with them of course.
- Unschooling and homeschooling support and activities.
- DBT support groups too!
- Much easier to find part time work that I can do with the kids around or in a way to not minimize my time with them as much.
The downsides I can think of are -
- Not so fond of having to use a vehicle if we want to get around quickly,
- or the way they construct their buildings and
- use way too much AC everywhere,
- politics (which also bug me in Sweden)...
Seems the cons list is small for me. I guess really going over is a good idea then. Hmm. Time to start the ball rolling then.
Anyway, while I was in Liljeholmen, I took the T-bana to Zinkensdam and the bus up to Stockholm Södra to buy a bicycle (300 kr) for Vidar. He got too big for the other one. I took my time coming back home - read the book and rested in between walking the bike home up the hill and through the park, behind the school and up the steep hill to our home.
Sadly, I didn't eat any food from the time I left the house (950) until I got back(1440). No snacks other than an apple, and laaate dinner. I will most likely feel this today, Friday, and think I am already as I've been feeling less energetic and quite tired/listless and easily annoyed.
After I got back home, I noticed the neighbor, Göran Persson, was home, so my husband and I went over to him to talk for a bit. I told him that the comments he made left me feeling uncomfortable and that I didn't like it. He said he was just joking but there was no joking when he made those comments. . . I am thinking that he is most likely an alcoholic and has inappropriate bounders and behavior due to all that that involves.
I sat outside for almost the rest of the day, coming inside around 19 to have Mika get me some dinner. Magne had fallen asleep on me and I really enjoyed just being in the moment and the sounds and feel of nature and life all around me. I also finished the 2nd book I had read that day, Vampire Academy. Then I started on the next book, Marked, which I finished before midnight.
So I also went to sleep late. Oi Oi. I seem to be trying to set myself up for instability and a crash. Silly Silly addict-voice. Time to really focus on my food and timings so that I can continue to be clear, especially with such a big life-changing move coming up!
June 23 - Wednesday
I am posting this on Friday, and, as usual, have forgotten most of what happened on Wednesday.
I do remember making brekkie for me and the kids. Reheating lunch, etc.
I also worked on Vidar's scrapbook and finished another 2 sides. It takes time, but it is both fun and addicting. I want to work more and more on it! I'm more balanced and able to look back upon that time period with some distance from the painful parts and cherishing the fun and loving parts. Therapeutic. I'm hoping Mika and I can include some letters to Vidar's future self for major events.
Freja really wants me to start on a book for her. :)
Mika enjoyed looking at what I had done so far with the scrapbook.
He also got home from work just before 18. I was so happy!
I think Freja spent a lot of time outside bicycling around in a circle in front of our house. Vidar came out with me and got some sun for 10 minutes or so before going back inside to play his DS games. Magne wanted to go out with Freja and chase after her but I was too tired to want to pay that close attention to his whereabouts, so I kept him in the front yard with me while I read a book.
I do remember making brekkie for me and the kids. Reheating lunch, etc.
I also worked on Vidar's scrapbook and finished another 2 sides. It takes time, but it is both fun and addicting. I want to work more and more on it! I'm more balanced and able to look back upon that time period with some distance from the painful parts and cherishing the fun and loving parts. Therapeutic. I'm hoping Mika and I can include some letters to Vidar's future self for major events.
Freja really wants me to start on a book for her. :)
Mika enjoyed looking at what I had done so far with the scrapbook.
He also got home from work just before 18. I was so happy!
I think Freja spent a lot of time outside bicycling around in a circle in front of our house. Vidar came out with me and got some sun for 10 minutes or so before going back inside to play his DS games. Magne wanted to go out with Freja and chase after her but I was too tired to want to pay that close attention to his whereabouts, so I kept him in the front yard with me while I read a book.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
June 22 - Tuesday
I woke up late, ate breakfast late, and sneezed a lot this morning. When I logged into Facebook I saw that my cousin, Jeff, had posted a picture of their newborn son, Logan Karl who was born on the summer solstice! Always happy to see new life. :)
The cleaning lady is coming today so Mika and I are going to pick up the floors soon and clear the counters in the kitchen. I'm going to be throwing away some shoes that aren't wearable anymore.
Then later today, I will have time to myself, an hour or three, and I plan on using that time to work on Vidar's scrapbook. I'm excited to finally get to start working on it! 7 years is a lot of catching up to do! I've all his first year photos and that is what I will start with.
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We managed to get everything picked up off the floor about a half hour before the cleaning lady came, then we ate lunch. After lunch, I got together my scrapbooking supplies and went to the fabric store where there is a nice little area with table and chairs. The store owner let me hang out there for 2.5 hours and during that time, I managed to get the title page done and the second page layout done. I am looking forward to working some more on it!
After I got home, we ate dinner and I rested on the recliner. I walked half way to the fabric store barefoot on asphalt and have a blister forming on the bottom of my left foot. Hopefully it'll heal quickly.
The cleaning lady is coming today so Mika and I are going to pick up the floors soon and clear the counters in the kitchen. I'm going to be throwing away some shoes that aren't wearable anymore.
Then later today, I will have time to myself, an hour or three, and I plan on using that time to work on Vidar's scrapbook. I'm excited to finally get to start working on it! 7 years is a lot of catching up to do! I've all his first year photos and that is what I will start with.
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We managed to get everything picked up off the floor about a half hour before the cleaning lady came, then we ate lunch. After lunch, I got together my scrapbooking supplies and went to the fabric store where there is a nice little area with table and chairs. The store owner let me hang out there for 2.5 hours and during that time, I managed to get the title page done and the second page layout done. I am looking forward to working some more on it!
After I got home, we ate dinner and I rested on the recliner. I walked half way to the fabric store barefoot on asphalt and have a blister forming on the bottom of my left foot. Hopefully it'll heal quickly.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Summer Solstice - June 21 - Monday - week 25
I woke up and ate breakfast within 20 minutes of waking up. Then I dumped out the old kitty litter, cleaned the box, and put in new litter. We use Feline Pine pellets - no disgusting clay dust and no yucky smell. Threw out the trash bag.
Now I am feeling tired and foggy. Soon I will make snacks for all of us and do some stretches. After I digest from that, I need to clean up the kitchen and pick up the floors for the cleaning lady tomorrow.
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Well, I didn't get any of that done. But the kids and I went outside for 3 hours.. er, only Freja and Magne. I just really needed to be outside, barefoot, and soaking in the energy of nature. Then we went to the front and Freja rode her bike for an hour or more and Magne chased after her. I played with them as I could which was quite a lot when compared with before. :D
We found some smultron (wild strawberries) and munched on some of those. Yum! While they continued to play, I did my stretches and squats. I think I actually managed to do a full squat with my heels down and body in the right position. I couldn't hold it for too long, maybe 20 seconds. YAY!
Now Mika is home from work and in the kitchen. He is cleaning and preparing to make us fajitas. YUM!
Only other thing to note is that I have been feeling very sad, almost wanting to cry at times.
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Well, I didn't get any of that done. But the kids and I went outside for 3 hours.. er, only Freja and Magne. I just really needed to be outside, barefoot, and soaking in the energy of nature. Then we went to the front and Freja rode her bike for an hour or more and Magne chased after her. I played with them as I could which was quite a lot when compared with before. :D
We found some smultron (wild strawberries) and munched on some of those. Yum! While they continued to play, I did my stretches and squats. I think I actually managed to do a full squat with my heels down and body in the right position. I couldn't hold it for too long, maybe 20 seconds. YAY!
Now Mika is home from work and in the kitchen. He is cleaning and preparing to make us fajitas. YUM!
Only other thing to note is that I have been feeling very sad, almost wanting to cry at times.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
June 20, Sunday
Today was a lovely day! Woke up on time and ate breakfast within 30 minutes of waking up - protein shake. Got the kids fed. Sat down and played on the computer for a bit while I waited for my brain to wake up the rest of the way. Then I got up and did some stretches recommended by Katy Bowman.
Mika slept in after being woken up a lot by our cat and by the neighbor's party (which they warned us about yesterday, yay for cool neighbors!). So after he had awoken and had breakfast, we went outside and worked some on the backyard. Mika moved the rhubarb to the side of our yard, rather than in the middle. We both picked up the twigs, etc, from when they removed 2 trees last year, and moved them to the twig pile near the forest in the back.
After that I sat down and did some weeding around the fruit bushes. I'm about halfway done now, but we're going to head to the lumber store to get some supports for the bushes. They're all laying flat due to the winds and weight of the fruit!
It's been a clear skies and windy kind of day. But the strong winds are up high in the tree tops while it's more like a gentle breeze where we were. Very nice. My favorite kind of day really! :D
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Sadly, we did not find what we were looking for at Hornbach or ICA for the garden. We will need to go to a few different places then. We did a big grocery shopping though, bought meat and chicken for the month as well as oatmilk. Of course we forgot the frozen strawberries. LOL. We had a 20% off coupon for toys at ICA, so we bought about 700kr worth of toys.
Mika slept in after being woken up a lot by our cat and by the neighbor's party (which they warned us about yesterday, yay for cool neighbors!). So after he had awoken and had breakfast, we went outside and worked some on the backyard. Mika moved the rhubarb to the side of our yard, rather than in the middle. We both picked up the twigs, etc, from when they removed 2 trees last year, and moved them to the twig pile near the forest in the back.
After that I sat down and did some weeding around the fruit bushes. I'm about halfway done now, but we're going to head to the lumber store to get some supports for the bushes. They're all laying flat due to the winds and weight of the fruit!
It's been a clear skies and windy kind of day. But the strong winds are up high in the tree tops while it's more like a gentle breeze where we were. Very nice. My favorite kind of day really! :D
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Sadly, we did not find what we were looking for at Hornbach or ICA for the garden. We will need to go to a few different places then. We did a big grocery shopping though, bought meat and chicken for the month as well as oatmilk. Of course we forgot the frozen strawberries. LOL. We had a 20% off coupon for toys at ICA, so we bought about 700kr worth of toys.
Freja chose a doll - sweden's version of a barbie doll, I think. I was a bit surprised as she has said no very emphatically for all these years. Her doll has a Hello Kitty shirt. She's big into Hello Kitty things right now. We also found some foam cut-outs of Hello Kitty to put on her wall when we change the Play room into her own room.
Vidar chose the child's version of Yahtzee. He enjoyed playing it with me after we got back from our shopping trip! It really shows how good he is getting at addition too when he adds up the scores.
Magne chose a little doll sitting on a car. And a garage thingie with 2 cars in it. He's already broken bits of those cars. LOL. He can break the sturdiest vehicle toy! We picked up some crayons for toddler hands and 3 small cars that he will get on his birthday.
Dinner was from Max.
Bedtime was late - around 11pm.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
June 19, part 2
After creating ToDo lists, I went outside and sprayed a whole bunch of aphids off of my elderberry tree with water. Then I fed the roses and the tree some food, and went to the backyard to do the same for all the trees and bushes there.
I pulled out the little pool for the kids from under a tree, where it had been all winter long. Oops. Freja, Magne and I cleaned it out thoroughly, filled it up and had an hour of splashy fun. :) Next, Mika and I prepared dinner of chicken, rice, and a lovely salad. Yum! We followed that up with watermelon and water.
Now we are about to head to bed. Didn't realize it had gotten this late. Oops!
I pulled out the little pool for the kids from under a tree, where it had been all winter long. Oops. Freja, Magne and I cleaned it out thoroughly, filled it up and had an hour of splashy fun. :) Next, Mika and I prepared dinner of chicken, rice, and a lovely salad. Yum! We followed that up with watermelon and water.
Now we are about to head to bed. Didn't realize it had gotten this late. Oops!
wk 24, June 19, Saturday
Well, I didn't get the things done yesterday that I had planned to do; instead, we all went to bed for a nap. Waking up 4 hours later. Oops. While we were napping, a loud thunderstorm moved in and both Vidar and the cat came into the bedroom as they were scared. After the nap we ate dinner, then went back to bed after some time, as it was 21 by then!
So, today is Saturday. The forecast says it'll be rainy, but right now it's a bit windy and lots of sun and blue skies. The Elderberry Tree out front needs to be hosed down to kill off all the aphids sucking the life out of it. All the fruit bushes and trees need to be fed some food as well. The fruit bushes need support, so I am hoping we can head to Hornbach and pick up some wood today. We have two gooseberry bushes, 3 black currant berries, and several fall raspberry plants, along with 2 apple trees and a plum tree.
Freja and Magne are drawing on some paper while Freja is singing. Of course they are sitting on top of the table rather than on a chair at the table. *grin* Vidar is upstairs playing his currant favorite Mario game on his DS. Mika and I are playing some games on Facebook while we let breakfast digest further.
Now I am off to Google Wave to start typing up this weekend's ToDo Tasks.
So, today is Saturday. The forecast says it'll be rainy, but right now it's a bit windy and lots of sun and blue skies. The Elderberry Tree out front needs to be hosed down to kill off all the aphids sucking the life out of it. All the fruit bushes and trees need to be fed some food as well. The fruit bushes need support, so I am hoping we can head to Hornbach and pick up some wood today. We have two gooseberry bushes, 3 black currant berries, and several fall raspberry plants, along with 2 apple trees and a plum tree.
Freja and Magne are drawing on some paper while Freja is singing. Of course they are sitting on top of the table rather than on a chair at the table. *grin* Vidar is upstairs playing his currant favorite Mario game on his DS. Mika and I are playing some games on Facebook while we let breakfast digest further.
Now I am off to Google Wave to start typing up this weekend's ToDo Tasks.
Friday, June 18, 2010
wk 24 June 18
So today I've been very tired and have spent most my time online reading http://www.katysays.com , playing a few games on Facebook, Looking up past friends to connect with, and otherwise taking it easy.
Katy is a biomechanic and is helping to spread the word about how holding the position of our body incorrectly is leading to so many of the more and more common problems of today - incontinence, organ prolapse, numbing fingers, painful feet, knees, hips and backs, etc. I have felt so excited to read and try out the things she recommends. After a week of doing a few things, I am feeling some nice improvement and more stability through out my pelvis region. Pretty Damned Impressive when I consider that I had less stability than this after 9 MONTHS of physical therapy 3x/wk! I will be buying one or two of her DVDs soon to further deepen my knowledge and improve my body.
My husband had his half hour massage today, after which he came home to work. Apparently when he works from his office, he never gets any of HIS work done as the co-workers constantly come to him for help... and most of the stuff they ask for help with are things they could find out on their own if they but took the time!
So after he came home, he and I made lunch together - whole grain spelt pasta spirals and a meat sauce with leeks, garlic, spinach and a bit of fresh fennel, sea salt, black pepper and a french herbal mix. YUM!
We are currently trying to sell a lot of our belongings, cutting down on what there is around the house is always a good idea. It makes things seem calmer, more free, and is easier to move if/when that happens. We've made up our plan, will be creating a shared Wave on Google with our list of what to sell and do soon, and then begin our plan. :)
I found a site called www.loppis.se that I am checking it out. It may be a handy place for selling some of the things we don't mind getting rid of for cheap, like kids' clothing and toys, and some kitchen things.
I do need to remember to review my DBT worksheets and skills. I figure as long as I review it once a week or at least twice a month, then I will be able to keep using the skills effectively. It's amazing how much having these skills are helping me live my life and enjoy it, no matter the downsides going on at that moment.
I heard from my father a few days ago that my Uncle Doug, who was diagnosed with prostate cancer in May, made it through his surgery to remove the cancer well and is still seeming to do well in recovery.
I have been feeling more sad and down lately as it is soon to be my friend's 8th death anniversary. Paul Jones died June 29th, 2002, after struggling with Crohn's and celiac disease his whole life, only to be told he had cancer in his small intestine when he had some surgery to remove a bit. Diagnosis to death was fairly short, as he was diagnosed in Feb 2002. *sigh* Love you dear friend.
Plans for the rest of the day are to add more tasks to the Wave, clean the kitchen, and put away the clean clothes.
Katy is a biomechanic and is helping to spread the word about how holding the position of our body incorrectly is leading to so many of the more and more common problems of today - incontinence, organ prolapse, numbing fingers, painful feet, knees, hips and backs, etc. I have felt so excited to read and try out the things she recommends. After a week of doing a few things, I am feeling some nice improvement and more stability through out my pelvis region. Pretty Damned Impressive when I consider that I had less stability than this after 9 MONTHS of physical therapy 3x/wk! I will be buying one or two of her DVDs soon to further deepen my knowledge and improve my body.
My husband had his half hour massage today, after which he came home to work. Apparently when he works from his office, he never gets any of HIS work done as the co-workers constantly come to him for help... and most of the stuff they ask for help with are things they could find out on their own if they but took the time!
So after he came home, he and I made lunch together - whole grain spelt pasta spirals and a meat sauce with leeks, garlic, spinach and a bit of fresh fennel, sea salt, black pepper and a french herbal mix. YUM!
We are currently trying to sell a lot of our belongings, cutting down on what there is around the house is always a good idea. It makes things seem calmer, more free, and is easier to move if/when that happens. We've made up our plan, will be creating a shared Wave on Google with our list of what to sell and do soon, and then begin our plan. :)
I found a site called www.loppis.se that I am checking it out. It may be a handy place for selling some of the things we don't mind getting rid of for cheap, like kids' clothing and toys, and some kitchen things.
I do need to remember to review my DBT worksheets and skills. I figure as long as I review it once a week or at least twice a month, then I will be able to keep using the skills effectively. It's amazing how much having these skills are helping me live my life and enjoy it, no matter the downsides going on at that moment.
I heard from my father a few days ago that my Uncle Doug, who was diagnosed with prostate cancer in May, made it through his surgery to remove the cancer well and is still seeming to do well in recovery.
I have been feeling more sad and down lately as it is soon to be my friend's 8th death anniversary. Paul Jones died June 29th, 2002, after struggling with Crohn's and celiac disease his whole life, only to be told he had cancer in his small intestine when he had some surgery to remove a bit. Diagnosis to death was fairly short, as he was diagnosed in Feb 2002. *sigh* Love you dear friend.
Plans for the rest of the day are to add more tasks to the Wave, clean the kitchen, and put away the clean clothes.
Direction - Attunement
I've recently decided that I would like to have something to refer back to about what I do each day; even if it is rather dull. They say memory is stronger when you take the time to reflect back on and review your memories and that is not something I have done - nor ever really wanted to do for most of my life. Now, however, life is well and I've 3 awesome children and a husband and I would very much like to create longer lasting memories about the daily ins and outs of our lives together.
So for now that is what the purpose of this blog is for.
So for now that is what the purpose of this blog is for.