Great news. Part of my problems lately are hormonal! My menses started yesterday so of course I had extra low BEs for the last week or so! Whew. Just knowing that has helped me find center and hope again. This is only my 2nd cycle after getting pregnant with Magne, so it will take time for it to settle into a rhythm.
Mika read the tips article I sent and I hope he will try to change his reaction to the children from now on, although I am sure I'll need too remind him from time to time (and he me probably!)
Today we made lövbiff with millet and some carrots. I cleaned the kitchen a bit too. Then we went outside and finished staking support frames for our fruit bushes. We still have 3 more to do, but ran out of wood, doh. Those three are staying upright on their own for the most part so we have time to get it done. Probably next weekend when we buy the wood for our fence.
Right now, Magne is sleeping on me and the cat is curled up on top of him and me. Mika's right knee is really hurting him, the worst he's ever felt, he says. Freja is bored and wants to go outside to play. Vidar is upstairs playing Super Mario Galaxy 2.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Saturday 17 July
So, I sent a lovely article link to my husband about 3 weeks ago which I think will help him change how he reacts to the children (and it is reacting, it is not responding). I don't think he has read it yet as he is still reacting to the children. I can see it sundering their trust in him each time and it hurts to watch.
I am not sure what to do now. Especially with my food being so awful lately, I am so tearful and reactive myself. I just know that this needs to change and soon or things will get worse here.
Okay, I just asked him if he had read it yet and he said no, so he promised he will read it this weekend. :) I want him to read it every day until he internalizes the change!
Other goals for today are to build the wooden supports for our berry bushes and to cook up more food and freeze it and to have sex. Mmmm. sex. Yay! ;) Oh yes and to reorganize the office/hobby room.
----part 2----
We've got one bush framed and pounded in some wood for the second gooseberry bush. Then it was time for lunch which was Rainbow Chicken curry with millet. Yum! While I ate, my dad came on Skype and we chatted for a bit. During which Magne dozed off in my lap. So now I am going to play Sims 3 Ambitions for awhile.
I am not sure what to do now. Especially with my food being so awful lately, I am so tearful and reactive myself. I just know that this needs to change and soon or things will get worse here.
Okay, I just asked him if he had read it yet and he said no, so he promised he will read it this weekend. :) I want him to read it every day until he internalizes the change!
Other goals for today are to build the wooden supports for our berry bushes and to cook up more food and freeze it and to have sex. Mmmm. sex. Yay! ;) Oh yes and to reorganize the office/hobby room.
----part 2----
We've got one bush framed and pounded in some wood for the second gooseberry bush. Then it was time for lunch which was Rainbow Chicken curry with millet. Yum! While I ate, my dad came on Skype and we chatted for a bit. During which Magne dozed off in my lap. So now I am going to play Sims 3 Ambitions for awhile.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Friday 16 July
Wow, I didn't realize how long it had been since I last made an entry here. My food got really shitty last week and has continued so this week as well. But tonight I made a great meal, so here's to getting back on track so that I can feel wonderful again!
Magne's 2nd birthday was on Sunday 11th July and we took the kids to lådbilslandet, where they had a lot of fun driving small cars, playing on the huge playground, etc. Freja has already asked to go back. :)
It's bedtime now, so I will write more tomorrow.
Magne's 2nd birthday was on Sunday 11th July and we took the kids to lådbilslandet, where they had a lot of fun driving small cars, playing on the huge playground, etc. Freja has already asked to go back. :)
It's bedtime now, so I will write more tomorrow.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
July 3 - Saturday
Today we rented a car and went to Hornback, Biltema, ICA, Jysk and picked up a lot of odds and ends that we needed.
Friday, July 2, 2010
June 2 - Friday
Painted one layer of paint on the last wall in Freja's room. Rested once for a bit. Didn't eat lunch, just snacked on bread and peanut butter. Hung outside for awhile on our own deck and on the neighbor's deck. He was inappropriate again but I was able to tell him that he crossed the line. Yay me! He doesn't think he is an alcoholic.
Now I feel sadness and grief. I think I am remembering my own drinking years and grieving over how I was.. esp. now that I know how it could have been had I been in recovery.
Now I feel sadness and grief. I think I am remembering my own drinking years and grieving over how I was.. esp. now that I know how it could have been had I been in recovery.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
July 1 - Thursday
Today we have finished up the purple wall and started on the pink walls. As of now, one wall has the first layer of paint and is drying enough to do the 2nd layer. Hopefully by Friday evening we'll have all the walls painted. Then we're going to do a quick layer of white on the ceiling and some white on the dustboards.
I have been feeling frumpy grumpy and down and sad and useless all day. I think I must have pushed myself too far on Tuesday by walking to Colorama and back home. *sigh* This too shall pass.
I have been feeling frumpy grumpy and down and sad and useless all day. I think I must have pushed myself too far on Tuesday by walking to Colorama and back home. *sigh* This too shall pass.