April 2012

So a whole bunch has happened in the past 2 years as I suspect is true for anyone. The children and I moved to the USA in December 2010 from Sweden. At first we moved to Utah and lived with my mother and her husband, but that didn't work out. So we moved to Ohio and moved in with my dad and his wife in February 2011. We've been here since then.

Vidar, who was diagnosed with PDD-NOS in Sweden, was also diagnosed with separation anxiety here in Ohio.  He was full of anxiety when it came to going to school so we homeshooled for the first 9 months or so until he got enough help from his therapist and the medicines. Now he has been in school for almost 2 months and seems to enjoy it. He's new at school work and stuff so we do not expect his grades to be great and are just happy that he is able to go there without any anxiety. Not a surprise at all but he's got an A in Math. :) He also has a best friend in the neighborhood and spends a lot of his time over at Brenden's house. They play a lot of video games together along with playing outside. Vidar broke his thumb on Easter sunday this year when he fell off his bicycle.

Freja has LOVED kindergarten and has gone since the fall last year. She says the only boring part is computer lab. She likes her teacher and her classmates, and she enjoys riding the bus to and from school. She seems to have problems with one of her ears and she says it keeps hurting her. We've just found her a girl in the neighborhood who is her age and they seem to get along at least. Hopefully they can become good friends.

Magne is still our little motorhead/gearhead. He loves his vehicles. He'll be starting preschool in this fall and seems excited about it.

All of our children have really grown and thrived here in Ohio, so I feel we made the right decision in regards to moving to the USA. Sweden has passed some strict laws regarding homeschooling, making it practically illegal. The school personnel and government do not know much about how the autism spectrum functions and it is not too uncommon that children get removed from their families due to this misunderstanding, because they do not realize that that is how the children are and think the parents are the cause of the child's problem.

Okay I have to stop here for now.

Sunday 18 July

Great news. Part of my problems lately are hormonal! My menses started yesterday so of course I had extra low BEs for the last week or so!  Whew.  Just knowing that has helped me find center and hope again.  This is only my 2nd cycle after getting pregnant with Magne, so it will take time for it to settle into a rhythm.

Mika read the tips article I sent and I hope he will try to change his reaction to the children from now on, although I am sure I'll need too remind him from time to time (and he me probably!)

Today we made lövbiff with millet and some carrots. I cleaned the kitchen a bit too. Then we went outside and finished staking support frames for our fruit bushes. We still have 3 more to do, but ran out of wood, doh. Those three are staying upright on their own for the most part so we have time to get it done. Probably next weekend when we buy the wood for our fence.

Right now, Magne is sleeping on me and the cat is curled up on top of him and me. Mika's right knee is really hurting him, the worst he's ever felt, he says. Freja is bored and wants to go outside to play. Vidar is upstairs playing Super Mario Galaxy 2.

Saturday 17 July

So, I sent a lovely article link to my husband about 3 weeks ago which I think will help him change how he reacts to the children (and it is reacting, it is not responding).  I don't think he has read it yet as he is still reacting to the children.  I can see it sundering their trust in him each time and it hurts to watch.

I am not sure what to do now. Especially with my food being so awful lately, I am so tearful and reactive myself.  I just know that this needs to change and soon or things will get worse here.

Okay, I just asked him if he had read it yet and he said no, so he promised he will read it this weekend. :)  I want him to read it every day until he internalizes the change!

Other goals for today are to build the wooden supports for our berry bushes and to cook up more food and freeze it and to have sex. Mmmm. sex. Yay! ;) Oh yes and to reorganize the office/hobby room.

----part 2----

We've got one bush framed and pounded in some wood for the second gooseberry bush.  Then it was time for lunch which was Rainbow Chicken curry with millet. Yum!  While I ate, my dad came on Skype and we chatted for a bit.  During which Magne dozed off in my lap. So now I am going to play Sims 3 Ambitions for awhile.

Friday 16 July

Wow, I didn't realize how long it had been since I last made an entry here.  My food got really shitty last week and has continued so this week as well. But tonight I made a great meal, so here's to getting back on track so that I can feel wonderful again!

Magne's 2nd birthday was on Sunday 11th July and we took the kids to lådbilslandet, where they had a lot of fun driving small cars, playing on the huge playground, etc.  Freja has already asked to go back. :)

It's bedtime now, so I will write more tomorrow.

July 3 - Saturday

Today we rented a car and went to Hornback, Biltema, ICA, Jysk and picked up a lot of odds and ends that we needed.

June 2 - Friday

Painted one layer of paint on the last wall in Freja's room. Rested once for a bit. Didn't eat lunch, just snacked on bread and peanut butter. Hung outside for awhile on our own deck and on the neighbor's deck. He was inappropriate again but I was able to tell him that he crossed the line. Yay me! He doesn't think he is an alcoholic.

Now I feel sadness and grief. I think I am remembering my own drinking years and grieving over how I was.. esp. now that I know how it could have been had I been in recovery.

July 1 - Thursday

Today we have finished up the purple wall and started on the pink walls. As of now, one wall has the first layer of paint and is drying enough to do the 2nd layer.  Hopefully by Friday evening we'll have all the walls painted.  Then we're going to do a quick layer of white on the ceiling and some white on the dustboards.

I have been feeling frumpy grumpy and down and sad and useless all day.  I think I must have pushed myself too far on Tuesday by walking to Colorama and back home.  *sigh* This too shall pass.